My Why.

Hey loves, 

It’s been a minute... and by that, I mean almost two whole years. Let’s just say this little corner of the internet has been real real quiet for a while. I once had this huge vision that this blog would be my big thing, that it’d blow up, and I'd see all this attention, feedback, and growth. Spoiler alert: that didn’t exactly happen. I think like three people outside of my family and closest friends actually read my posts. I’m not gonna lie, it was a little heartbreaking and pretty embarassing. It felt like I had failed at something I thought I was destined for, and walking away seemed so easy (especially considering it meant I didn’t have to put in the work for it anymore).

But here’s the thing—I couldn’t just like let it go. Even when I wasn’t actively blogging, I was constantly thinking about it. I’d catch myself writing blog posts, brainstorming topics that I would post next, reworking my website, and just trying to be a creative girly. Ever so often, I’d get that spark and think, "Okay girl, just start again!" But then, self-doubt would creep back in. What if it ‘fails’ again? What if no one cares? And honestly what even is failure? 

And trutfully, that’s why I’m here today. Not just because I’m paying for this domain and hate to see it go to waste (although, let's be real, I’ve spent way too much money letting this site sit and collect dust). It's also not because I’m about to graduate college and feel like I should have more to say. It’s actually because of something deeper: obedience. Lately, I’ve been asking God to reveal my purpose, or my why and while I don’t have all the answers yet, I know I’m on my way to getting those things. I’ve been blessed with many gifts, especially writing, and I just can’t keep letting fear or laziness hold me back.

Writing is my passion, always has been. I mean, when I say “good,” I don’t mean okay, I mean like I could write about anything. That’s why I started this blog in the first place. But I’ve always been super critical of myself (something we’re gonna talk about because a self-critic? Yea, that's me). When I didn’t see the results I wanted, I let myself feel like I failed. And that’s tough to handle.

But here’s the truth: God isn’t done with me yet. He’s still writing my story, and I feel compelled to share it. Not just for me, but for His glory. I’ve had so many life experiences, relationships, and opportunities that have shaped me, and I think these stories need to be shared—not just mine, but the stories of others who’ve touched my life along the way. Who knows? Maybe I’ll be sharing your story here someday!

So here I am, reclaiming this space and embracing what’s already been set in motion for me. No more procrastination or letting fear get in the way. It’s time to step up and trust that God’s plan is bigger than my doubts. I’m here to be a voice, not just for myself, but for others too.

Letters with Lailah is more than just a blog where I ramble—it’s a revolution. This is a space where words become actions and actions lead to real change. I’m not trying to be another cliché content creator. I’m just a humble girl with a huge heart (and a lot of opinions) that I’m excited to share. We’re going to dive into so many topics that I’ve personally struggled with and a few I’m still figuring out. You’re also gonna get to know more of my super vibrant and bubbly personality (so brace yourself for lots of laughs and realness)!

We’ll talk about my faith and my walk with God—let me tell you, it has NOT been easy. Your girl has been dragged by her edges, for real. And being a young woman in the 21st century? Whew, I have so much to say about that. And dating? I won’t say too much right now, but y’all just have to wait for that tea. Seriously, I have soooo much to share—you won’t believe the stories I have! Even though I’m in my early 20s, life has been wild, and I can’t wait to talk more about it all.

Before I start rambling even more (I tend to do that), let me just say THANK YOU. To my village, the ones who’ve inspired me, prayed for me, encouraged me—you know who you are. I’m blessed beyond measure and wouldn’t be here without y’all. And to you, whether you’ve been rocking with me from the beginning or you’re brand new—thank you for giving me your time today. I hope you stick around, because this time, we’re in it for real.

With love (and so much gratitude),

Lailah